I spent my professional career in the corporate world, working on strategy, and creating and executing plans. Big plans, little plans, they varied in size and scope. And, in those plans there were things that I could control, and some things that I could not control. But whatever the plans had in them, I tried my best to make sure that they came out to my predetermined goals. Sometimes I would have to do a course correction while the plans were in the execution phase to get to those goals. And at times I think that the time I spent in that career was good training for life, and at other times that career did me a disservice.
The planning, research, and analysis portions of my career taught me some real good discipline. However the control portion during the execution phases may not have served me so well. What I did in my professional life spilled over into my personal life. And, I spent plenty of time in my personal life maneuvering things to accomplish the goals that I wanted to achieve. I was so busy planning, and executing my plans in my personal life the I rarely ever stopped to consult God and what He wanted for my life, or where He wanted me to go.
That was a big mistake on my part. I fully believe that I personally derailed and frustrated God’s plans for me, which most likely set me back a very long way. I often joke that my guardian angel’s (if there really is such a thing) frequent pose is that they sitting there with the palm of their hand on their forehead, and at the same time, that head is shaking back and forth, as if they are saying “Oh, Lord look at what she’s done now.”
It’s sad but true! I’ve cause so very many of my own problems by stepping in and “helping” God bring what I think are His plans into fruition. Only now I realized that they were not His plans at all. He’s had different plans for my life. And, knowing God, I am so very sure that His plans are so much better. I really wonder just where I would be today if I had just taken my hand off of the steering wheel and let God drive.
Maybe I see this better now because I’m in the “mature” phase of my life. But, now I have determined that whatever that comes next in my life, will come how and when God designs and by God’s plan. That’s my dream – I want to completely follow God. I want whatever it is that He wants for my life. I want to get out the way and let God take the helm. I want to enter a season of waiting and receiving whatever it is that God brings into my life – challenges and blessings alike.
Proverbs 16:3 “Commit your work to the LORD, and your plans will be established.”
Isaiah 46:10 “declaring the end from the beginning and from ancient times things not yet done, saying, ‘My counsel shall stand, and I will accomplish all my purpose,'”
Jeremiah 33:3 Call to me and I will answer you, and will tell you great and hidden things that you have not known.